Your promises are nothing but chocolate coverd lies that when the sun shines the mask will soon melt away and your true colors will show you can try all you want but nothing you say or do can cover the burns from your words because nothing and none can save me from myself but me o matter who caused the pain and hate i can only save myself.

Ok well I am stupid and so nieive. Well my boyfriend well Ex. is a cutter and one night he just decided to cut himself...(pretty bad I saw it)...and so the person he lived with called the cops and they came and after that the cops where calling doing the whole check up thing and she then decided to kick him out. Well he had to leave to go to texas the next morning so i got to see him and we hung out untill like 2:30 A.M. Well he made me all these promises about how he would call me everyday and he would come visit me for my birthday. Well he called me everyday for about...2 or 3 days and then stopped. So he sent me a messege on myspace saying he broke his phone and that was going to be the only way to talk to eachother I was a litle mad but at least we had the computer. Well he stoped getting on and i asked about if he was coming back like he "promised" but he didnt answer me. And one day i got on the computer and realized he deleted his myspace so i was pissed because that was the only way we had to talk. And he broke my heart. he made all these promises that he wouldnt keep and stupid me let my gaurd down and believed him. i know he was cheating on me. i dont know why i was so stupid i knew that it was fake all a lie but i still believed him. i am so glad i didnt have sex with him. I thank god for that. and and what realy kills me is i truely did love him and i think sadly i always will but i will NEVER forgive him for what he did to me. he took the pussy way out and didnt even have the balls to tell me it was over. i hate him for that. and everyhting i do reminds me of him. all i have been doing for a month (since he left) is cry all day i cry myself to sleep. and i know hes been cheating on me with his ex. girlfriend who is also his babys mama. he told me he went to albacurqy to visit his father when i think he went to see that whore. I hope that they get aids and die i along aganizing death and live a horrible life because they deserve it. This pain that i let him put me through i will never do that again.